Predetermined Fate...?

After 2 years, I post here again. Haha. The irony...

Anyway, this will be one of my most serious posts. I've been living as a normal person for 17 years in my life. In four months, I'm turning 18. I'm someone whom you'll consider having no problems at times. I'm someone who doesn't care about the past nor the future. I care more for the present, on what's happening now, and on what I can do at this time. Now that I'm reaching the age of becoming an adult, it's become inevitable that I start thinking of what's ahead of me...

And I can't seem to understand what I'm seeing.

Let me tell you a little background story. One of my relatives is a known doctor. She's living a very well-off life right now, and she has no problems financial-wise. Within our family, none of us can be considered as very successful. We're all normal people with normal lives. And even if they all know that they could've done more, they can't anymore.

My relative has a lot of stocks at a variety of hospitals, and when she's gone, no one's going to take over. She'd have to sell them.

As someone who's not interested in the future, I don't know what to answer when asked "What do you want to be when you grow up?" And when I was asked that question, in a somewhat different degree, in this case: "Would you like to become a doctor?" I answered a normal "I guess."

That's where my predetermined fate started. Since then, I could no longer weave my own path to my destiny...

To be continued once I get internet cash again.