After 2 years, I post here again. Haha. The irony...
Anyway, this will be one of my most serious posts. I've been living as a normal person for 17 years in my life. In four months, I'm turning 18. I'm someone whom you'll consider having no problems at times. I'm someone who doesn't care about the past nor the future. I care more for the present, on what's happening now, and on what I can do at this time. Now that I'm reaching the age of becoming an adult, it's become inevitable that I start thinking of what's ahead of me...
And I can't seem to understand what I'm seeing.
Let me tell you a little background story. One of my relatives is a known doctor. She's living a very well-off life right now, and she has no problems financial-wise. Within our family, none of us can be considered as very successful. We're all normal people with normal lives. And even if they all know that they could've done more, they can't anymore.
My relative has a lot of stocks at a variety of hospitals, and when she's gone, no one's going to take over. She'd have to sell them.
As someone who's not interested in the future, I don't know what to answer when asked "What do you want to be when you grow up?" And when I was asked that question, in a somewhat different degree, in this case: "Would you like to become a doctor?" I answered a normal "I guess."
That's where my predetermined fate started. Since then, I could no longer weave my own path to my destiny...
To be continued once I get internet cash again.
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Heyyy lady, not quite sure why I'm posting here, (especially considering that it's just under a year since you made this post), but hey. I am.
Anyway; you can always determine your own fate. Even if doing that would ruin your relations with other people and society itself, there are never any true binds grounding us to any particular 'fate'. You never have to follow the path set out in front of you, it's just that most of us do, as it's far easier than taking an alternative. I mean...I'm 21 now, in my final year as an undergraduate in university, studying a course I have never really had any particular interest in, and this is all because I follow a similar mind-set; rarely focusing on anything but the present, (which is probably a bad thing for a would-be 'historian', ha.) With a pretty hedonistic life view, I spend the grand majority of my time playing games, (RPGs, WOAH YEAH), listening to music, watching movies/animé, spending time with close friends andddddd generally procrastinating when it comes to work.
tl;dr. Anyway...of late, I've been tentatively poking my thoughts towards the dreaded future. I've realised I have no plan whatsoever in terms of accessing any form of financial gain, even if I do get a university degree. (Nevermind all the goddamn recessions and shizzle that're going down at the moment, yo.) I mean, ideally, I'd work as a writer for videogames orrrr even work as a musician, if I could gain an income that way. But both are slightly far-fetched. I guess it'll come down to one of two things, in the end; either getting a job that I enjoy with a pretty average/below average income, orrrr settling down for a job that I dislike that'll grant me slightly better income. But, either way...as long as I can make my loved ones happy, maybe go on the occasional holiday, etc...as long as I can have fun, I'll be happy :) Thus, we should not worry for the future! After all, it doesn't even exist yet.
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